Book Title: The Emancipation: Dion’s Baptism
Author: Dijon M McIntyre
Publisher: FreedomArtz LLC
Cover Artist: Cameron Dudley
Release Date: December 5, 2019
Genre: Contemporary Adult Fiction
Themes: Love, Depression, Forgiveness, Coming out, Acceptance
Heat Rating: No heat
Length: 34 365 words/128 pages
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A young gay man has a near death experience that forces him to go through therapy and recount the events of his abusive past that led to his excessive drinking and depression.
The Emancipation: Dion's Baptism is a fictional story about a young man who has a near death experience and ends up going to therapy, forcing him to dig up painful memories from his past and discover what is the real cause behind his depression and his excessive drinking. He not only finds the answers he's looking for but also the strength to forgive all the people who have hurt him.
“It’s something I don’t normally tell people about because I don’t want them blaming my sexuality on that. With me being gay, I feel that people in my life always look for an explanation as to why I’m gay or how I “became” gay. It’s not like it was one particular incident that made me like guys, I’ve been this way for as long as I can remember. As a child I didn’t really know a name for it or a label to attach to it, I just knew I was always attracted to men. I don’t care too much about how anyone else feels about it, this is part of who I am.”
“If you don’t mind me asking, what people in your life did you feel wanted an explanation from you about your sexuality?”
“Everyone, at least that’s the way it felt. Close friends, family members. They all wanted to know why I’m like this; they treated it like it was a disease. I remember people in my family asking me if I had been molested by someone in the family or saying that I turned out like this because I used to carry my grandmother’s purse to her car for her before she went to work. People tried to find every explanation for something that didn’t need one. It’s like I’m asking me why I’m black. Who cares as to why I’m this way, I just am.” Dion doesn’t look Cathy directly in her eyes when talking about him being gay and feeling rejection.
“Seems like you felt the pain of rejection a lot in your life.”
“More than you know, in some ways I think rejection is the very reason that I’m in this office talking to you in the first place.”
“What is your earliest memory of being rejected?”
“Ouch. I need to take another drink before I tell you this one.”
“Is it that bad?”
“Not sure if bad is necessarily the right term to use--more so painful.”
August 5th, 2001
“DJ, what are you doing?” Kesiah asks in a slightly critical tone.
“Singing duh, I love to sing.”
“You do? Since when?” She rolls her eyes.
“Since always, I always sing in my plays at B.C. Cook.” Dion expresses with a child-like excitement
“Well you need to stop singing.”
“Because you aren’t good at it. Momma used to always say that ‘if you ain’t gone sing a song right then don’t sing it at all.” Keisha walks away, leaving Dion’s eyes full of tears that he silently lets out.
Present Therapy Session
“Keisha is your sister, correct?
“Yeah.” Dion twiddles his thumbs showing his anxiety from talking about his sister.
“When she told you that you couldn’t sing, how old were you?”
“I was seven, I looked at my sister at that time as my best friend. I looked to her for encouragement and support.”
“In that moment, do you feel like she failed you by crushing your expectations of her?”
“I did feel that way, wisdom and time has helped me to forgive her and understand that she wasn’t really trying to hurt my feelings. She was a thirteen-year-old girl who was still hurting from the death of her mother, our mother. And she didn’t fully know how to process the things that were going on in her life at that time. Looking back, I actually feel bad for not being more understanding about the pain she was in. I held that against her for a long time.
“I know you said that you forgave your sister but what about the effect of what she said? Do you still want to become a singer?”
“Not really, I mean she wasn’t entirely wrong in what she said. She wasn’t entirely right either. I did love singing and my elementary school was a performing arts school so I got to do every area of performance whether I was good at it or not. I decided that my real passion lies somewhere between not just performing but also creating.”
“So you want to be a music producer? Or a singer-songwriter?”